Blimey, its been so long since I last visited here. Nearly 3 months to the day in fact. And so long ago that my gold membership has expired and my fairies have gone *sniff*
So, you may be pleased to know that I am still alive!! Things have been weird in the last couple of months. Obviously I left work and so far it has been one of the strangest and toughest things I have ever done.
I sooooooooo wasn't prepared for the emotional rollercoaster I was about to take a ride on.
The good days are ok. I enjoy my time at home, catch up with friends I haven't seen for ages and sort stuff out around the flat for our impending move out day.
The bad days are...well I can only really describe them as BAD! Poor old P bears the brunt of it all, putting up with my tantrums and strops or the floods of tears when I feel that I will never ever get another job anywhere ever, that I am too crap to get another job and that I am the biggest social outcast in the history of the world.
I have applied for so many jobs its scary! I've had 3 interviews and one testing session so far and they were for the first 4 jobs I applied for, I have another interview next week (for the 5th job I applied for) so while the sensible part of my brain is telling me that I must be doing something right to get an interview - one of the jobs there were 117 applications and I got through to the 11 that were interviewed - the irrational part of me is going 'yeah, but you must be crap coz you still don't have a job!)
I know that these things take time and that I will get the right job for me eventually *crosses fingers and makes a wish* its just that each rejection is a little more soul destroying than the one before.
God, 'ark at me being all depressed and stuff, think its time for me to get some more caffeine down my neck and cheer up a bit me thinks!!
And also about time I started updating and reading diaries again!!