To be honest I think part of me was looking for a reason to have a row, although I did have a valid point but more of that in a mo�
Work was really busy yesterday so I wasn�t in the greatest of moods and I seem to have developed insomnia having been wide awake still at 3am on Monday and surviving the day on 2 and a half hours sleep, and then cleaning the kitchen at 11.30 on Tuesday night in a bid to make myself tired so that definitely played a part in my mood. But I digress
I had T on text from Australia. He is back on Monday and he started asking questions about what would happen when he got back, what did I see happening, what did I want to happen etc etc. What could I say. I don�t want to tell him about Muppet over text, it doesn�t seem fair, so I told him the truth.
That neither of us knows how we are going to feel until we see each other and we�ll just have to figure it out then. He reckons its scary that he cares for me so much when we don�t really know each other that well (the majority of our relationship having been conducted over text and email) but its kind of exciting at the same time coz sometimes he thinks that I may be his soulmate *gulps*
Of course this stressed me out ever so slightly. I like Muppet, a lot. My life is settled and I am happy. I�m worrying about what could happen when T gets back and coming up with all kinds of scenarios and although I tried to not stress about it, it was still bugging me out last night.
Anyway, I met Mupps at the bar and we were meant to be going somewhere else but were going to have a couple of drinks with 2 of the girls he works with first. No big deal, I�ve only met one of them once but they seemed nice enough. However the night went on and we were still at the bar and then we started hitting the shots � Aftershock, Goldschlager, and something else (I think Sambuca) � all appeared at some stage during the night so after closing the music went on and the dancing started. Trouble was at that point I was still relatively sober and didn�t appreciate having to watch one of the girls gyrate and drape herself all over Muppet. Yes as much as it distresses me to admit, the green-eyed monster made an appearance.
As the hours progressed I just got more and more pissed off with it so after the others had left and Muppet said �Can you go too I need some sleep� in a really off-handed, put-out kinda way I lost it. Now those that know me that when I get the arse about something I won�t fly off the handle I just say �I�m fine� in that tone when asked if I'm ok. Now I have to give the boy credit coz he knew that there was something bugging me and that he would find out what it was. So in the cab on the way home I texted him and told him that he�s made me feel like a spare part all night and I didn�t appreciate the way he spoke to me. That was when the phone call came and he got the arse coz I said �who�s that?� (He called from a number I didn�t know!) and then it all went off from there! I�m quite impressed that I managed to take my make up off while all this was going on as well!
I think part of me wanted to start a fight, to push him and see how he would react. That if we argued he wouldn�t like me and wouldn�t want to see me again and there would be no decision to make when T comes home. The thing is I really really do want to see Mupps again. How warped and twisted is that?!!!
Still Mupps texted me today and said that he shouldn�t have been pissing about with the others when it was meant to be our night together and he wants to see me again as soon as possible. So I am happy again, I�m fighting off the demons that are bugging me and I am going to concentrate on things with Mupps. We�ve survived our first argument and not only have we both learnt a little more about each other we can look forward to making up *grins*
Anyway, I think I have droned on for long enough. Its nearly time for me to go home so bye bye peeps�happy Thursday to ya.