What does all this mean....could I be.....lovesick????!!
I am sooooo unbelievably tired. But soooo unbelievably happy.
I saw D (Dime) last night and although I am still really wary of him he makes me smile a lot *big sigh of happiness*. He reckons that I am special and that he really wants things to work between us but he is scared of relationships and wants to take things slowly. I told him I am scared of him and waiting for him to perform his marvellous disaapearing act again. He told me he wishes I would stop mentioning it, that I should forget about it and that he has no plans of going anywhere. He told me that he wasn't bothered what I got up to on holiday but that he didn't want to know and then when Cosmic started talking score-sheets he asked what I had got up to. I told him I had a couple of drunken snogs. Yes, I know there were seven of them but he didn't need to know ALL the gory details did he??!!!
He asked me if I would go to Las Vegas with him. He went last year and loved it and wants to go back...with me. He wants me to meet his best friend and BF's wife, and has been talking about me in work apparently. He took a photo of me last night coz he reckoned I look gorgeous in it.
I am stunned by all this affection and.....stuff that is coming from him. He sounds genuine but I am scared stiff. I know that I could end up getting very hurt by all this and I am trying to keep detatched but its sooo hard when I think about him probably all of the time and I can't wait to see him again. We are both busy now until next week so I won't see him. He said he will miss me but that's kind of good in a warped way because at least if he's missing me he'll want to see me again and won't disappear on me.
I am rambling...I have to stop....this is what happens when you drink on a Monday night and have about 4 hours sleep....I have to go stick biro lids in my eyes to stop them from shutting. I may just go and smile for a little bit more as well!!