Why are certain people so interested in my life and what I'm doing with it? Why do certain people have to express an opinion about my personality and suggests reasons for why I'm single?
I'm not happy this week. Today I have been informed that H thinks I am too laid back and that is why I don't have a boyfriend. It makes guys think that I'm not interested. H, who is qualified in relationships *cough* to have an opinion on mine (or lack of), thinks he knows me well enough to think he can comment. I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense but I am so mad.
The story is basically this. J called me last night apologising for not having been in touch. He is a policeman and has been on surveillance all week so hasn't spoken to anyone. When I said it was fine he said he couldn't believe how laid back I was about it. My answer 'why get stressed about things I have no control over'. It's not like I'm going out with the guy or anything either. Anyway, J must have spoken to H, said I was laid-back or whatever and now H reckons this is my problem.
Well, please excuse me while I go and have a personality transplant.
I'm sorry but if people can't deal with me as I am then tough. Cosmic made a good point in that she is single too and she is the complete opposite. She worries quite a lot, I worry very little and that's probably why we get on so well and have managed to live together so well over the last 2 years- we balance each other out. Eventually I'll meet someone that can deal with my laid-backness and all will be well. But what's the panic? I'm only 24 and 99% of the time I am happy with the way my life is. Occasionally I get moments where I think 'I wish blah was different' but who doesn't. I can't believe that me becoming neurotic is going to make me more attractive to blokes!
Anyway, I blame the heat. I think it makes men go a bit mental. I ended the day yesterday having had a call from J, a call from the ex who I shall call Dime, (the one I saw last week) asking what I was doing tonight and did I want to meet - and no I'm not meeting him, my life is full of excitement and I'm getting my car serviced!- and one of the guys at work gave me his mobile and home numbers to call him if I wanted to go out with him for a drink!!! See it's the heat, makes them all go weird!
Oh well, back to work for me, break is over. I have a couple of things to add before I go. A message:
(you know who you are) are there enough exclamation marks now? I thought I was getting a bit carried away with them but as you missed them I thought I'd bring them back!!!!! (and an extra ! for you)
And secondly- I am wearing a flowery dress today and I do look like a girl! The reason for this comment is that about 8 people have commented today on the fact that I am wearing a pale blue flowery dress- apparently a rare treat. You would think I was walking around naked for the impression that it has made. Perhaps I should try that tomorrow............